I can’t even begin to articulate the feeling we experienced here in Hawaii this morning. One minute I am pulling up to the farm getting ready to teach a beautiful yoga workshop- the next is utter chaos. Phones and radios and sirens are sounding. Alerts telling us to get inside and take cover because we are about to be hit by a ballistic missile. People and children are running and screaming and crying. Everyone is desperately calling their families and crying I love you’s into the phone. Have you ever seen your life flash before your eyes? Everything you’ve said and done, everything you haven’t that you’ve always wanted to. All the regret. All broken heartedness. All the shock and sorrow and pain and “what if’s”. With tears streaming down my cheeks, one of my favorite farm members Robert took my hands and led me outside. Robert is older, he’s seen a lot more than I have. He is wise. He says; Brooklynn. You know what I do when I fly in airplanes? I’m afraid of them. But I have no control over what happens. So I meditate. I get my head right. I find peace. I find gratitude. And I let whatever happens, happen. All you take with you into the next life is what you have created Here spiritually. Go be where you need to be, and get right with yourself. He told me this while gesturing to my beautiful yoga stage at the foot of Mount Ka’ala. I hugged Robert, I knew he was right. And I went and sat with those mountains and made peace with letting go. I truthfully thought we were going to die this morning, many of us did. And I actually sat and made peace with it. What a feeling to come back from. To say goodbye to it all and surrender only to realize you still have a whole life ahead of you to live and it is going to be okay. It took 40 minutes before we were alerted it was a false alarm. And for 40 minutes I did that work so I could move on. What a wild emotional space to be in. I have never experienced anything like it my life; and I hope I never have to again. For now; I am so grateful it was a mistake. I still don’t know how, but I am grateful. And most importantly; I love you. All of you. My family. My island. My community. My career. My life. I love it all so much and I am so grateful I get even one more day with it. Tell people you love them. Be kinder. Live lighter. We are promised nothing. Mahalo Ke Akua.
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